I don't know if I'm going to leave. To be 100% honest, I just wanted to leave without all this drama and be done with it, but that didn't happen, so here I am.
But it's not set in stone. I might still leave, I might not.
I don't know.
I will make the decision when I make it. Don't force the decision on me.

As for why I might be leaving in the first place?
My first reason is obvious, and needs no explanation, unless you don't know who I am.
Basically, I can't draw. At all.
And honestly? I'm sick and tired of people telling me "Oh you can draw, I know you can. You just need practice." No. That's not the damned situation, for Christ's sake. Do some research on my past journals, I'm not explaining it here why I don't draw.

My second reason. I'm sick and tired and fed up with all those artists out there who think they're better than everyone else.
Most of them just draw when they feel like it and show it off, bragging about how long it took them and what they had to do and all this other crap no one cares about. Basically, it's just rubbing salt in the wounds of people who can't draw, like me.
And don't even get me started on the deviants with subscriptions.
Hooo boy, I'm gonna get a lot of shit from subscripted deviants for this one, I know it.
Honestly? The majority of deviants seem to get subscriptions just so they can be "cool" and decorate their whole freaking page.
Not to mention that they spam their journals with their own drawings and deviations to decorate their journal.
Your gallery is right next to your journal, I can click on it if I please. I don't want to be forced to look at your art through your journal because you wanted to make your journal fancy. I'll look at your "art" if I feel like it.
On that note, most of the journals are so spammed with pointless decorations that you have to dig through all the pointless crap just to see the actual entry itself.
Some people even state who they are and what they draw in every journal entry, as if we didn't read it the first time!
Can't you just post what kind of art you draw and stories you write in your Deviant ID so you don't spam every journal with that info?
In fact, whenever I click on a deviant's name and see a decorated journal, I just leave the page instantly. I'm tired of looking through all of this crap that I don't care about just to read a small journal entry that's probably only 10% of the actual journal size itself, with the remaining 90% being pointless decorations.

Oh, and if you're a subscripted deviant, and have taken offense to this? Honestly? It's my opinion. You can't, won't, and don't have the right to change it.
Deal with it.
And if you DO decide to try and change my opinion, then you're just another one of those stuck-up artists. And I don't want to hear ANY of it.
You won't earn respect from me that way.
I only respect artists that I actually have an interest in.
Not the ones that advertise their "art" by spamming their page with everything they've ever drawn.

But I'm not done yet.

Most artists (not subscripted artists in particular) never, EVER reply to their comments!
I mean, for crying out loud, most of them tell you how you can improve your drawings!
Or do you not WANT our advice?
Do you want to just stay in your la-la land where you think your art is always perfect?
How self-centered can you get.

This is why I'm not sure if I want to stay here or not. It's because of self-centered artists who soak up all the glory they can possibly get, without even doing so much as THINKING about people like me, who can't draw.

That was a hell of a lot to get off of my chest.
And you people probably didn't like it, either.
Here's a few messages I can see coming my way.
1. "This hurt my feelings! I don't like you because you complain and talk shit too much!"
Suck it up and take it like a man. They're my opinions. I believe I stated that before, and I also mentioned they wouldn't be changed?
2. "I understand your pain."
No you don't. Stop pretending you do.
3. "Oh but I'm not like those artists! I'm so much nicer and better than them!"
Don't tell me this. I don't know you, and you don't know me. In fact, you've probably never even looked at my past journals. I will be the one to decide whether or not you're a kind-hearted artist, or one that just doesn't care. You don't decide this for me. But just a hint? You're probably the very damn kind of selfish artist that I've been talking about.

I'm not expaining this anymore, you get the point.
For those of you who think I've gone mad, or just mentally snapped or something?
I can assure you, I'm perfectly sane.
I told you, didn't I? I don't like art, because of people like these.

I don't know if I'll stay. But now you see why I wanted to leave. I didn't want to cause any drama, or post such a journal as this, but it was the only thing to do for the time.

And one last thing. If I've hurt any of my friends feelings here?
I want to apologize in advance for however I may have hurt you.
This does NOT, however, apply to the people I don't know.
I will only apologize to unknown people if I see it fit for an apology to be in order. Until then, if you do so much as TRY to act high-and-mighty here, you will be blocked. Period.

I'm done writing this.
I might leave, I might not.
End of story.